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Graceful Key to Recognition of Adi Da
The Graceful Key to Recognition of Adi Da
(from the consideration period in 1998 known as
"The Overnight Revelation of Conscious Light")
For many years Michael has lived and served closely around
Avatar Adi Da Samraj. From teaching horsemanship to Adi Da's daughters,
to managing Adi Da Samraj's household and travels, Michael has
regularly served within the Divine Guru's intimate sphere. Michael
has participated in several of Avatar Adi Da's principal Teaching
Revelations, including "The
Overnight Revelation of Conscious Light", which is the setting
for this story, which appeared in The
Promised God-Man Is Here, by Carolyn Lee, Ph.D. (1998 edition).
were very profound "considerations" with Beloved Adi Da on every
level of the being. He would use periods of silent Contemplation
to Draw us more deeply into feeling the Divine Nature of Reality
— His own Divine Nature.
On one particular night, when we were describing to Him
our experience of Him as Conscious Light, He gave us a lesson
that made a profound impression on me. Even though we felt we
were describing something that was very real for us, He kept saying,
"You don't get it. You just don't get it." No matter what we would
say to Him, He would repeat this phrase to us. It was very frustrating,
as it went on for quite a while. In response to whatever we would
say, He would repeat, "That's what I mean — you just don't get
it." I began to feel that there must be something fundamentally
very wrong in my recognition of Beloved Adi Da.
Finally, when we had reached a pitch of frustration, He
said, "You can't get It." Suddenly, it made complete sense to
me. I understood, tacitly, that it wasn't a matter of trying to
succeed at "getting it". In fact, the attempt to "get it" was
the problem! I saw that there was no way "I" — as a separate being
— could "get" the Truth, or "get" Beloved Adi Da's Divine Nature.
As soon this understanding was given, I felt Beloved Adi
Da's Spiritual Transmission thick in the room. I simply looked
at Him, and saw Him as the center of a field of tangible, visible,
Love-Blissful, Conscious, breathable Light. I felt myself go through
a kind of "door". On the "other side", there was the most extraordinary
perception of my Beloved Guru that I had ever experienced. It
was primarily a feeling-recognition of Him, a swoon of love in
which He was simply Energy and Light and Divine Love-Bliss. He
Radiated a visible, even tangible, Light that was so attractive
that I felt my entire being captured and attracted by Him. There
was no longer the sense of being a separate self — just the profound
peace of realizing that there is nothing to seek, nowhere to go,
nothing to attain. This was Reality Itself, and it was not separate
from "me". I had no sense of my usual persona or contracted self.
It was sort of like waiting all your life for a package to arrive,
and then when it comes you aren't there — but you are so happy
that you don't mind at all!
There was another time, sitting in the room with Beloved
Adi Da, when it suddenly became obvious that every one and every
thing in the room was the same vibratory Light that He Is. I looked
down at the notepad that I was writing on, and it was obviously
vibratory Light. All the objects and people in the room were clearly
this same Energy. This was remarkable, but there was nothing "strange"
about the experience. Rather, the feeling of the experience was
one of absolute Happiness.
There is no way for me to describe, in these few words,
how Happy this heart-Communion with Beloved Adi Da is. Everyone
has the urge to know that the Divine Exists, beyond any doubt
in body, mind, or heart. Beloved Adi Da has relieved me of any
and all doubts about the Divine. The Spiritual relationship to
Him, which He Offers to everyone who is moved to become His formal
devotee, is the most profound Love I have ever known. It is Love
to the degree of forgetting oneself in Total Bliss.