Is No Loss
has been Adi Da's devotee since the 1970's.
Editor's note: For the
first three days after Bhagavan Adi Da's Divine
Mahasamadhi, His Body was preserved (packed in dry ice), draped in orange
cloth and positioned upright in a lotus position on His bed in His Bedroom (in
accord with instructions He had given) so that until the interment, devotees could
receive final Darshan
of His Bodily Human Form.
When I heard of Beloved Adi Da's Passing, I immediately arranged to come
When I arrived at Adi Da's House (about thirty hours after His Passing), I felt
such an incredible sense of personal loss of my dearest, dearest Loved One, that
I burst into tears. I wept inconsolably on the veranda of His bedroom as I sat
there for a few minutes. I rarely cry, and don't cry much even when I do, but
this time, the tears flowed in a torrent of grief. I held my head in my hands
and rocked back and forth in anguish. Final Darshans had ceased by the time I
had arrived, but someone seemed to take pity on me and invited me to come into
the Bedroom to see Beloved Adi Da. On the way in the door, I encountered Ruchiradama
Quandra Sukhapur and we embraced, again weeping and weeping, both of us.
She told me it was okay for me to see Him, and I should just go inside. When I
did, I offered my gift at the foot of His Bed. His daughters were there, along
with a small number of intimates.
In His Company, I gradually stopped crying,
and began to feel Adi Da Present in the most extraordinary manner. No Movement.
Neither Ascending or Descending. Simply Present and Radiant Before me. Very quickly,
I stopped feeling the loss of His Beautiful Bodily Human Form and I began to feel
His Divine Transcendental Spiritual State. Again no Movement, but He Suffused
my entire body, every cell, so I became attuned to Him without content. He Took
me over, and I felt relieved of all pain, and simply beheld Him. I was filled
with Joy as I experienced Him after His Passing. There was no diminishment whatsoever
in His Divine Fullness and Love. There was no loss. He was Simply Present, and
I realized that this will always be the case — He will always be Simply
Present for the sake of all.
As I was traveling to the Island, I had been
feeling some regret that I that I had missed the Silver Hall Sittings [Transcendental
Spiritually initiatory occasions] with Beloved Bhagavan earlier in the year. I
felt I had missed something essential in my relationship to Beloved Adi Da, but
now He was gone. But I found out that is not true. I felt in those brief twenty
minutes or so in His Bedroom that He "Caught me up" with Everything He had Revealed
in the Silver Hall and showed me that His Divine Transcendental Spiritual Transmission
is a Gift that all of His devotees will continue to receive in perpetuity. It
Is His Divine Person. It has nothing to do with us. But it is a Gift in which
we can all participate. And so, it is true, just like He Always Said, in Truth
and Spiritually, there is no loss with the passing of His Beautiful Body.
TO "ADI DA'S DIVINE MAHASAMADHI AND ADIDAM IN PERPETUITY"