Teaching Years Were "Fruitless"
Mulund gave this presentation to the gathering of
Adi Da's devotees on August 26, 1990, in Land Bridge Pavilion
at the Mountain Of Attention Sanctuary. He presented Adi Da's communication
about how His "Teaching Years" [the
period of His early Work with His devotees] were "fruitless".
has been a devotee of Avatar Adi Da since the earliest years of Adi Da's Work
in Los Angeles. He was a corporate attorney at the time he was introduced to Avatar
Adi Da, and he has been the principal attorney for Adidam for over 25 years.
"Mulund" is the name given to Michael by Avatar Adi Da, and so we use this name
like to present to you some Communications from Beloved Adi Da about the years
of His Teaching Work.
Adi Da's Work during that time began like
this: In 1972 He would sit in His chair in
the Ashram in Los Angeles and Transmit only the purest Divine Blessings. He observed
that we could receive and enjoy something of what He was Transmitting.
But He also saw that we weren’t growing — we weren’t making real use of what He
gave us. So He began talking to us as well. He would sit in silence but He would
also talk, He would instruct, He would answer questions. And He continued to see
no significant change in us, because we were so caught up in the karmas that we
brought to Him — karmas of self-fulfillment, of a bodily based possibility.
since we couldn't "come to Him" — even though He was sitting in the room with
us — He began coming to us. He began the Teaching Years, in which He would identify
with everything in us and begin to live like us and with us. It was the most remarkable
thing — because you hear about things like people having parties with Him and
so forth. Well, even the word “party” — what we mean when we use the word “party”
is that He was living like us. He was finding things we were interested in
doing, that we were able to bring some passion and attention and energy to. But
in the midst of that, He also would always be calling us to Him As He Is,
as His Divine State. He continued His attempt to evoke in us the capacity to feel
and contemplate Who He Is, so that He could draw us beyond the karma, beyond the
mind.Where on Earth do you find anything that invites you to self-transcending
God-Realization? Nowhere, nowhere in my experience, except at the Feet
of Beloved Adi Da Samraj. Everywhere else you find experiential possibilities.
And whether they look like extravagant self-indulgence or the tempered mediocrity
of middle class life, or even traditionally ascetical approaches to escaping the
futility of life, they are just a vast array of experiential choices that are
literally ultimately about self-fulfillment — even self-fulfillment in the higher
realms of ascended human possibility, Yogic possibility, but self-fulfillment
nonetheless. Beloved Adi Da has never called anybody to any of that. He’s always
called everybody beyond all of that, all of it, all of it.
for several days recently [August 1990], Beloved
Adi Da spoke about what all His Teaching Years were about, what He did with us,
and why. And He talked about how there came a time when everything combined to
end the Teaching Work in the event of His Divine
Emergence on January 11, 1986. What He said was "the Teaching Years were
fruitless". But then He went on to explain what He meant.
said that the Leelas [stories] of His Work with His devotees in those years
do serve a great purpose. So it's not that the years
of His Teaching Work were wrong — they were necessary.
He said that His
Teaching Years were His "Consideration" of the entire Way of Adidam and
of everything that is fruitful to the purpose of Divine Self-Realization. And
He said that, as a result of His Work during that time, He
proved that the activities that constitute
the searches of humankind are fruitless.
What Avatar Adi Da proved to be fruitless was the search, because He exhaustively
and creatively allowed us to search high and low, and He Divinely inspired us
in that search. Suddenly mommy and daddy weren’t telling you you couldn’t do something.
The "Teaching Years" were a fabulous, ribald, wonderful, glorious, sometimes sober,
sometimes mad adventure. And at the end of it, He had clearly demonstrated that
everything in us that was the search, and everything it would lead to, was fruitless.
I can confess that from the depths of my heart. I’m a person born in the United
States of America in the 20th century, born to search [laughter]
and born to fulfill much of the materialist search that is possible. He allowed
me to search and to be fulfilled far beyond my wildest expectations [laughter],
and at the end of it there is the possibility of getting the lesson that you cannot
be become happy or totally fulfilled through any seeking at all. You can
only already be happy. This is what He calls "the lesson of
life" and which can mark the beginning of Spiritual practice.
added that, during
His Teaching Years, He
also proved that various remedies that are often
and traditionally proposed are fruitless.
He also proved fruitless all the things you’re inclined to do when you see the
fruitlessness of the first things you were inclined to do. Even when you see,
with those in the East, that bodily based life is fruitless, and you’re then inclined
to go to the cave, He would crawl right back in the cave with you and show you
the fruitlessness of that, because you know the Teaching years weren’t just us
drinking beer and having sex and stuff. They were also about Nirvikalpa
Samadhi [one of the most exhalted and treasured of Spiritual experiences].
One time around 1980, I was sitting with Beloved Adi
Da in Bright Behind Me [Adi Da Samraj's residence at the time] with about
20 people, and it was about dawn. And He was talking about the esoteric instruction
of Jesus. And He was saying that there’s at least one point of view that when
Jesus spoke about the morning star, he was speaking allegorically about the "blue
bindu" of ascended Yogic experience, the "blue pearl" [a
very blissful Spiritual experience some Yogis say is associated with the realization
of Consciousness Itself]. And what Jesus would do is spend these occasions
with his disciples in his tent, and he would raise them up to this ascended realization
of the morning star. And of course as Beloved Adi Da is speaking this, I
begin to perceive this vision. Even though I am looking at Him, suddenly
I am contemplating this star, the blue bindu. It is as if I am at the feet of
Jesus in 1980, I’m having the experience of the blue pearl. Now this is
what I sometimes feel nostalgic for about the Teaching years, because on that
particular morning I can’t imagine where in manifest existence would have
been a more wonderful place to be than sitting there being gifted with this revelation
of the blue pearl.And Beloved Adi Da said to me, “Do you see that?” And I
said, “Yeah.” And He said, “Describe it.” So I described it, and He said, “Yes,
that’s it.” And He said, “Now tell me everything you feel about it,” and I talked
about how I felt about it. And He said, “Now do you feel the
limit in it?” And I felt the limit in it. And I knew that my capacity to feel
the limit in it was something He was also giving me in that moment, just as the
capacity to see it was His gift to me that in the moment. So there I was
having an ascended experience as a gift from Him and also seeing the limits
as a gift from Him.
Well the same thing in other occasions,
having some delightful food possibility or sexual possibility — always Him showing
the limits and the fruitlessness of the search.
To continue with
Beloved Adi Da's communication: He said that the
years of His Teaching Work (and the summary of that time) are a demonstration
and a proof of a great lesson, which He has called the "Lesson of life".
said that when He first began to teach, devotees came
to Him with all kinds of expectations and demands and disabilities relative to
the process of Realization. It very quickly became clear to Him that such devotees
would not be able to make use of Him without His first entering into a "grand
Play" with them, through which they would be relieved of their seeking. That Liberating
Play was the basis for the years of His Teaching Work.
this sense, Adi Da said, it was inevitable that the Work of His Teaching Years
would "fail" — because the "consideration" of this period was of seeking, and
all seeking is fruitless.
He said that the years of His Teaching
Work were a "grand Submission" on His part, in which He Gave to humankind the
"Lesson of life" as a free Gift. He indicated that it is a Gift from Him that
can be received by anyone who will rightly and truly study the demonstration of
His Teaching Work and the stories of the Blessings He is presently offering devotees
via the Way of Adidam. He
said that, since the Initiation of His Divine Self-Emergence (and by Means of
that Great Yogic Event), He has come to a "Firm Stand" in relationship to all
present and potential practitioners of the Way of Adidam, and that as a result,
His Work during the Teaching Years now can truly serve everyone
Adi Da said that
as a consequence of His
Work during the Teaching Years and His summary of that
Work, His devotees don't have to go through a long (and self-indulgent) process
of analyzing themselves. He said
that all they need to do now is to examine the stories of His Work of Teaching
and of Blessing, and, in a simple and intelligent manner, study His Word of Divine
Confession and Blessing Instruction. This, Adi Da says, is sufficient to establish
a basis for a right and true practice of the Way of Adidam.
What Adi Da
has been saying is the gift He has to give us since the Divine Emergence is that
in our Spiritual resort to Him, in our resort to Him in practice, He now creates
the opportunity for us to move beyond ourselves into His State. But in that process
we’re always also constantly having our ego reflected to us, our tendencies reflected
to us, whatever is inhibiting our Communion with Him — without Him having
to do anything. We do not have to duplicate the Teaching Years. We simply have
to turn to Him.
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