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The Graceful Key to Recognition of Adi Da

Michael Shaw

(from the consideration period in 1998 known as
"The Overnight Revelation of Conscious Light")

For many years Michael has lived and served closely around Avatar Adi Da Samraj. From teaching horsemanship to Adi Da's daughters, to managing Adi Da Samraj's household and travels, Michael has regularly served within the Divine Guru's intimate sphere. Michael has participated in several of Avatar Adi Da's principal Teaching Revelations, including "The Overnight Revelation of Conscious Light", which is the setting for this story, which appeared in The Promised God-Man Is Here, by Carolyn Lee, Ph.D. (1998 edition).

Michael Shaw These were very profound "considerations" with Beloved Adi Da on every level of the being. He would use periods of silent Contemplation to Draw us more deeply into feeling the Divine Nature of Reality — His own Divine Nature.

On one particular night, when we were describing to Him our experience of Him as Conscious Light, He gave us a lesson that made a profound impression on me. Even though we felt we were describing something that was very real for us, He kept saying, "You don't get it. You just don't get it." No matter what we would say to Him, He would repeat this phrase to us. It was very frustrating, as it went on for quite a while. In response to whatever we would say, He would repeat, "That's what I mean — you just don't get it." I began to feel that there must be something fundamentally very wrong in my recognition of Beloved Adi Da.

Finally, when we had reached a pitch of frustration, He said, "You can't get It." Suddenly, it made complete sense to me. I understood, tacitly, that it wasn't a matter of trying to succeed at "getting it". In fact, the attempt to "get it" was the problem! I saw that there was no way "I" — as a separate being — could "get" the Truth, or "get" Beloved Adi Da's Divine Nature.

As soon this understanding was given, I felt Beloved Adi Da's Spiritual Transmission thick in the room. I simply looked at Him, and saw Him as the center of a field of tangible, visible, Love-Blissful, Conscious, breathable Light. I felt myself go through a kind of "door". On the "other side", there was the most extraordinary perception of my Beloved Guru that I had ever experienced. It was primarily a feeling-recognition of Him, a swoon of love in which He was simply Energy and Light and Divine Love-Bliss. He Radiated a visible, even tangible, Light that was so attractive that I felt my entire being captured and attracted by Him. There was no longer the sense of being a separate self — just the profound peace of realizing that there is nothing to seek, nowhere to go, nothing to attain. This was Reality Itself, and it was not separate from "me". I had no sense of my usual persona or contracted self. It was sort of like waiting all your life for a package to arrive, and then when it comes you aren't there — but you are so happy that you don't mind at all!

There was another time, sitting in the room with Beloved Adi Da, when it suddenly became obvious that every one and every thing in the room was the same vibratory Light that He Is. I looked down at the notepad that I was writing on, and it was obviously vibratory Light. All the objects and people in the room were clearly this same Energy. This was remarkable, but there was nothing "strange" about the experience. Rather, the feeling of the experience was one of absolute Happiness.

There is no way for me to describe, in these few words, how Happy this heart-Communion with Beloved Adi Da is. Everyone has the urge to know that the Divine Exists, beyond any doubt in body, mind, or heart. Beloved Adi Da has relieved me of any and all doubts about the Divine. The Spiritual relationship to Him, which He Offers to everyone who is moved to become His formal devotee, is the most profound Love I have ever known. It is Love to the degree of forgetting oneself in Total Bliss.