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The Mad Talking Dance
Stilwell has been a formal devotee since 1976. He is
one of the founders of this website. You can read his biographical
information in the About
was a gathering during the 1986-87 Indoor
Yajna at Adi Da Samrajashram in Fiji. We had been with Beloved
Adi Da probably since seven o'clock that evening. I can't recall
right now what the principal consideration had been with Him earlier,
but it had been something related to the new book He was developing
called The Basket of Tolerance.
That conversation had lasted several hours until the effects of
drinking Fiji Bitters [a popular Fijian beer] crossed us
over to singing opera and then to dancing.
Something very interesting to me happened during the first and
more sober part of evening. This particular evening I happened
to not be so actively participating in the conversation with Adi
Da. I was being more observant of what was going on instead. I
would watch Adi Da respond to questions and watch devotees ask
them. In this more passive mode, a kind of shift in consciousness
occurred at some point. I began to clearly feel and almost tangibly
see and hear devotees as a "point of view". What I mean by that
is it was somehow tangibly obvious that they were there, speaking
to Adi Da, obviously actively presuming themselves to be a separate
someone, and speaking from a "point of view" that was clearly
limited and fixed, locatable, in time and space.
I would then look at Beloved Adi Da and listen to Him, and there
was absolutely nothing of that perception. He was there responding,
for sure, but He projected absolutely no point of view. It was
not that He was being eclectic in His Responses, or anything related
to the apparent content of the discussion. It was on an entirely
different level. His Responses were just happening. He Himself
was just Happening. Just as obviously as devotees were projecting
their "time-space" limitation, Beloved Adi Da was just and simply
there, with out any "time-space" limitation or self-presumption
Six or seven hours later, we are drunk and dancing. I am sitting
on the edge of the slightly raised platform we called the "dance
floor". Popular rock and roll type music was blaring and Adi Da
was dancing in the middle of the crowd of devotees. I became aware
that He was saying things, so I consciously directed my attention
to His voice. He wasn't talking sentences, He didn't seem to be
trying to make sense. He was just "talking". Then I heard something
I understood —
it was something I had just thought, or maybe just "said to myself".
He continued to talk. Then it happened again —
He said out loud something I had just thought —
verbatim, the exact words of my thought. Then later again, maybe
a couple of more times. You can imagine it was a bit startling.
Adi Da's Mad Talking Dance went on for about 5 to 10 minutes or
so, then the dancing wore down and that seemed to be the end of
the evening —
well, it was around 2:00 am —
and Beloved Adi Da left.
After the gathering we went to the ashram kitchen to eat before
going to bed. This was part of Adi Da's general Instruction to
us during gathering periods. We would eat some sort of grounding-type
food before going to bed to help counter the etheric weakening
effects of drinking alcohol so that we were less liable to intrusion
by negative etheric forces and spirits.
In the kitchen I told a friend of my experience in the gathering.
When I spoke about Beloved Adi Da's "Mad Talking Dance", another
friend who overheard me confessed that he had had a similar experience
during that dance.
Well, over the next couple of days I asked several of my friends
what their experience of the evening was, and it turns out that
several had noticed the same thing —
that during that "Mad Talking Dance", Beloved Adi Da was Speaking
their thoughts as well.
I don't know if absolutely everything He was saying that evening
was the thoughts of those around Him, but I wouldn't doubt that
was the case. But whatever one could say was going on, it was
a demonstration to me of Adi Da Samraj's unique relationship to
everything in His Sphere, be it His Identity with it, His State
of non-separation from it, or His Condition of inherently defenseless
vulnerability to it.