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The Bright Master of Peace
Alaya Gernon has been a devotee
of Adi Da since 2009. She lives in England, is an Interfaith
Minister, heals people using vibrational energies, and provides
The setting of Alaya's story is
a retreat in July, 2016 at The
Mountain Of Attention Sanctuary in Northern California,
which included a weekend workshop on Adi Da's masterpiece,
Prior to my retreat (and throughout it as well), a deep process
arose, demonstrating to me that Bhagavan Adi Da Samraj Is everywhere,
Is everything, and He orchestrates it All. His Blessing Regard and
Divine Yoga can be felt with every breath. I'll now try to share
with you through this story that deep process of Divine Revelation
and psychophysical synchronicity.
* * *
As I began my travels to The Mountain Of Attention, I happened
to read the transcript of one of Beloved Adi Da's discourses about
how the world was mad.
Here I was, on my way to a retreat that would focus on Adi Da's
Is Peace. But I could not imagine how the world could
ever respond to such Divine Teaching. In that moment, real Radical
change in the world seemed impossible to me.
My journey from Vancouver to San Francisco reflected the chaos
and madness of which Adi Da spoke.
The taxi did not arrive, making catching the plane difficult.
Then, after making it to the airport, customs advised me that my
bag was too heavy.
After a few minutes they reversed this statement!
Then I was randomly tested for cocaine, creating another delay.
Then it transpired there was a problem with my ticket, resulting
in the only seat available being the one at the extreme back: the
As these chaotic events unfolded, I intuited what feeling them
from the Witness-Position was like, through Beloved Adi Da's
Grace. It was obvious that others suffering similar "bumpy"
treatment were irate and stressed. In that moment, I had a deep
recognition of how lucky devotees are to have found our Heart-Master
— we are forever lifted beyond apparent complications, if
we only turn the faculties of the body-mind to Him.
And so I invoked Beloved Adi Da continuously during my travels.
While leaving customs, I felt the undeniable yoga of His Current.
I was moved to look upwards. . . There above me were four cabinets
filled with Mickey Mouse! And the first ones I happened to see were waving and
I burst out laughing! I had the realisation that Beloved was reflecting
Real Happiness, no matter what was arising. As He does again and
again, He was showing me that He is everywhere and everything. The
very Mystery of existence. What a Gift! What humour!
* * *
It was now the day before the retreat. I was still travelling.
While stopping in a town for refreshments, chaos reigned again!
Thirty-five police cars drove past rapidly. One could feel tension
in the air.
The town siren went off and people were confused as to what the
Gunshots were heard very nearby, and people fell to the pavements
Police cars drove madly through the town.
I decided to leave, and drove off quickly.
That was a fortunate decision. It turned out that the police were
searching for a robber! The town was locked down for the next five
hours until the robber was found.
This incident forced me to consider the violence, fear, and anger
in the world. The world news that day featured disasters, murders,
and crazy politics (based on differences and separation rather than "not-two").
The feeling of impotence, of the impossibility of making any real
change, was magnified in me.
* * *
It was now the day of the retreat, and I was headed for The Mountain
Of Attention Sanctuary. While stopping for refreshments, the thought
came again: how will the world ever respond, given the level of
madness and chaos I was witnessing? I again had an overwhelming
feeling of impotence. What could we do personally? What could we
do as a community to ever really transform this madness into something
As I pondered this, I felt Adi Da's immense yogic Current again.
I looked up. A huge shop sign shouted at me:
The only thing visible on it was the word, MASTER.
I burst out laughing!
Of course the address to my dilemma was so obvious when Beloved
Adi Da showed such clear signs. We are not the ones who can transform
this mess. Only His Divine Pattern can shift things in this domain,
combined with the power of our convocation, conformed to Him.
It is egoic and limiting to think we are doing anything. He
Is the Master. He is our Master, and we must conform ourselves
I even became aware of my tendency to feel I have to explain His
Word. Yet on reading His book, Not-Two
Is Peace, again, it was so evident to me that He already
has said it All, with crystal clarity.
I then wondered what the shop signage said beyond the word, MASTER.
There was a second word, that I hadn't made out clearly.
To my amazement, the second word turned out to be PEACE.
Beloved Adi Da is the Master of Peace!
With that Revelation, all concern left me. Adi Da's Siddhi surged through me, and all fear vanished. We
must allow Him to do His Work.
Three minutes later, I wanted to look at the word, MASTER,
again — but now it was being obscured by a green van:
And all that was visible on the van was the word, BRIGHT!
Adi Da is the Master of Peace, The Divine Incarnation, and His
Work starts and ends with Prior Unity — The "Bright"!
I laughed, and felt a transformation, a shedding of an egoic stance
that "I" was anything, that "I" was the doer.
Let us all wake up to His Magnificence! His signs can be seen everywhere,
because He Is appearing in every moment — if we only have
the eyes to see.
* * *
As i drove to Adi Da's Empowered Sanctuary, The Mountain Of Attention,
I could feel the word, "Master" grating energetically
within my psyche.
I realized that, up to that point in my relationship with Him,
I had never referred to Him as my Master. It was obvious that this
was a knot in me, and a lack of surrender, and this too was being
reflected to me through all these synchronicities.
I prayed that Adi Da's Grace release this knot in me that was keeping
me from Him, allowing me to fall deeply into Him and receive His
And through His remarkable, Divine Grace, the knot was shattered,
and the heart-connection to Him was now so tangible.
How could we ever doubt His Magnificence?
It is His play, His dance.
Radical change can only happen from the Source position, the Divine
Through Adi Da's Divine play with me, I now was able to participate
in the Not-Two Is Peace retreat from a sense of Prior Unity,
given as a Gift from my Master.
* * *
Adi Da continued to show the signs of His Presence throughout the
It was magnificent that my room number was 3, which felt auspicious
I was on retreat with a devotee I had worked with in The "Bright"
House. She was a total gift! Throughout the retreat, I was ecstatic,
unaware of the time, and she was very grounded, and kept track of
the schedule for me.
On arrival at The Mountain Of Attention, I offered a gift and acknowledged
in my heart my contraction around the Not-Two Is Peace course.
I only had wanted a meditation retreat, but Beloved Adi Da had other
plans for me!
I also felt my fear of speaking out in groups. Despite having held
leadership roles all my life and having done public speaking, I
did not feel comfortable doing it, and my preference was to say
My retreat began with five days of "meditation retreat".
I fell so deeply into Beloved Adi Da, that much of my egoic complication
melted away. Adi Da's Siddhi Current in the meditation hall poured
right down through the crown of my head and I lost all sense of
self and time. This happens for me quite often in meditation, but
it was especially intense during my time at The Mountain Of Attention.
On the third night of retreat, I had a nightmare. It was a most
disturbing dream. I had been abused sexually as a child by my father.
I no longer felt limited or bound by it consciously. But in the
nightmare, my father (who had been dead for seventeen years) had
purchased a new house and was aggressively trying to get me and
my sister to move back in. He had "bought the furniture" for the house,
he said. In the dream, I felt trapped
— an uncomfortable feeling I used to feel as a child.
Beloved Adi Da stood next to me. He encouraged me to speak out.
I told my father that this was no longer happening. It was over,
and I would never go back.
At that, my father became more aggressive, and would not let me
go. Beloved Adi Da had disappeared but I still spoke out. I agreed
to stay and make some soup for the family, but told them I would
then leave and take my sister with me. I made the soup. My father
took off his shirt and poured body sweat into my soup bowl and tried
to force me to drink it. It was revolting, and I woke up and looked
at Adi Da's Murti in my room and said to Adi Da, "Beloved,
that was awful!"
The room was filled with Adi Da. I fell back to sleep, and the
Beloved Adi Da was with me again. I said to my father, "No,
it is over."
That morning at 5am, as we walked to meditation, I told the other
devotee on retreat about my dream. She said, "You
have forgiven your father, and released the shock, but you never
felt the revulsion at what was happening before now."
I felt this immediately. What a perfect place to be!
I walked into the meditation hall, prostrated and offered a flower
and surrendered my feeling of revulsion. In an instant, Adi Da's
thunderous Current poured into me, into the right side of my heart.
The centre was painful, but the Current was unstoppable, and I was
rocking in bliss. I felt relieved at the deepest level. What was
more remarkable is my sister (who is not a devotee) received a simultaneous
Blessing which she felt and told me about later.
Commune with Me in
Turn to Me whole bodily—
Beyond all "experience" and
Let Me "Live" you.
Dissolve in My Divine
Current of Love-Bliss.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
from "Let Me Live You"
in Part Eight, The Aletheon
* * *
The next day, we were asked to do service. I felt totally blessed
to work the whole time in Sacred Service. It is this which makes
me sing! On the last day I was asked to make a mala for the forthcoming
celebration. It was meant to be 16 inches. . . but I was so ecstatic
that I had to be interrupted when it reached 48 inches!
The priest told me the next day that my mala was going to be used
in the most sacred place on the Sanctuary, the Sukra Kendra. This was such an incredible blessing
and Gift back to me and brought me to tears.
* * *
weekend was the Not-Two Is
Peace workshop. The course was a deep consideration. Yet
my overwhelming feeling from before the retreat — the feeling
that Adi Da has Given everything, and that His Word is explicit
and ecstatic — remained with me throughout the workshop. We
should not revise Adi Da's Word with our compulsion to explain.
Instead, we should speak from the heart, and He will guide us and
show us the signs we need to see.
In this disposition, the retreat was ecstatic. As anything arose
— contraction, uncomfortableness, whatever — my impulse
was to surrender it all, and through this devotion, Adi Da's Grace
I gave to Beloved Adi Da my fear of speaking out in a group, and
again His Siddhi poured through. Again I lost all sense of self
very quickly. At the end of the course, I spoke out and also presented
my group's thoughts. Whatever my fear had been about, it had vanished.
* * *
After the Not-Two Is Peace workshop had completed, my meditation
retreat continued. That night, I had an extraordinary dream.
Beloved Adi Da’s dog was in a different dimension, but even so,
was communicating with my two cats. I was with them all. In the
dream, I was alarmed to see that the dog had no brain or top of
the head — it had been taken out! But he was very happy, and
communicating with one of my cats in particular.
The dog moved to one side, and my cat pushed his own head through
to the dimension the dog was in.
In the dreamtime, Beloved Adi Da stood next to me.
I said to Him, "The dog is mindless, given over, not troubled
by the mind."
As soon as I saw that this was the case, the dog suddenly had a
top on his head!
On waking, I was worried the dream might mean that something had
happened to my cats. While walking over to meditation with my devotee
friend, Jacqui, I told her about my dream. She looked shocked and said,
"You are tuned in!" She told me that, that morning, Ruchiradama
Nadikanta had informed devotees that Beloved Adi Da's dog had peacefully
* * *
The retreat (including the weekend Not-Two Is Peace
workshop) has been Adi Da's Leela throughout. At its completion, my heart feels
awakened and enlivened and surrendered to Him. I feel a boundless
love so great with each breath I turn to Him.
He Is the Lord Ruchira Da, my Master and Guru! And now this is
so easy for me to proclaim from the heart.
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