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Way of the Bone:
The Addict's Revision of Adidam
vs. the True Way
I'm a devotee. While Adi Da was still alive, my whole practice every week was
oriented around Adi Da's newest gifts to us (His books, His image-art, His communications
to devotees, etc.) I'm somewhat at a loss as to what to do now, after His Divine
Brief answer: In the relative quiet after
Adi Da's Passing, we may finally have the space to feel a fundamental error many
of us may have been making in our practice.
of the most remarkable signs of Adi Da's human lifetime was His role as Da:
the great Giver of Gifts to His devotees and the world. Adi Da spent many hours
of each day creating extraordinarily potent Transcendental Spiritual Gifts: His
books, His Image-Art, His
essays and talks, the Hermitage Sanctuaries
and Sacred Places, His daily, oral communications (aka His Notes), His Darshan. From the beginning of His work with devotees
in 1972 to the time of His passing in 2008, His Gifts to us were a ceaseless torrent,
even overwhelming in a sense. For instance, we hardly had time to "digest"
or "assimilate" His Wisdom on one topic, before He gifted us with another essay
or talk on a different topic.
With our Beloved Master's passing, that stream
of humanly manifested gifts has ceased, even as (at the same time) we are assured
eternally available Gift of His Divine Presence — which is sufficient
for Divine Realization. Perhaps it would be more accurate to say that the stream
has slowed rather than ceased, insofar as there is an immense backlog of His humanly
manifested gifts. It will take years before all that He gave His devotees and
the world is released in an accessible form. Even in the next few years alone (I am writing this article in May, 2009),
we will see the publication of The Aletheon,
The Gnosticon, The
Pneumaton, and (at long last! for those of us who have been waiting for
it for years) The Basket of Tolerance.
And this is not to mention the thousands of works of Image-Art
yet to be released or fabricated, the tens of thousands of hours of unreleased
recordings in the Adidam Archives, etc.
Even so, in the relative quiet after
Adi Da's passing, His devotees may finally have the space to feel a fundamental
error that many of us may have been making in our practice of the Way of Adidam,
that is keeping us from growing in the practice. The purpose of this article is
to identify that error, so that those of us who are making it can correct it immediately.
(For non-devotee readers, consider this a glimpse into the extraordinary challenges
that must be surmounted in creating a new and enduring spiritual tradition in
general, and Adidam in particular. Prospective devotees are being invited not
only to an individual Spiritual practice, but to a collective "house-raising": the establishment of Adidam — the Way, the organization, the Sanctuaries, etc. — in perpetuity, for the benefit of all future generations.)
1986, Adi Da has criticized us for continuing the "Teaching
Years" disposition in relation to Him. Fundamentally, His criticism has
been a reference to our not "making the switch" (after the initiation
of His Divine Emergence, on January 11, 1986) to a practice
based on submitting to Him, rather than on Him submitting to us. During the Teaching
Years, the forms of His submission to us were extraordinary: from uninhibited,
Crazy Wise play and consideration with us in every area of human life; to
miraculous displays of higher-stage phenomena and transport into higher states.
But there were three key lessons Adi Da drew for us during that period:
- No matter how incredible a particular experience, it was not
- Any state He gifted us with (by virtue of His Transcendental
Spiritual Realization) was temporary, because it was His
Gift, not our Realization, and no such state could possibly
last without our taking responsibility for realizing it. It was
easy to miss this point, and get so caught up in the extraordinary
state that one missed this point about Who was giving one the
was like the scene in one of Christopher Reeve's Superman movies,
where Superman is flying with Lois Lane, and is holding her only
by a single finger — to the point where she gets the (mistaken)
sense that she is flying: until he (accidentally) lets
go, and she instantly plummets downward. (He catches her, of course.)
For stories of devotees getting this point that the really important
matter was not the extraordinary states (and getting fascinated
with, lost in,and karmically bound by them), but the relationship
with the Master Who was capable of gifting us with these extraordinary
states, read A
Cosmic Journey and Visits
to Other Worlds.
- The actual principle for Realization — the one at the
core of the ancient Guru-devotee relationship — is the one
Adi Da introduced at the beginning of His Teaching Work: You
become what you meditate on. Hence the practice is to contemplate
the Master's State, in order to Realize it. This process of our
submitting to our Guru rather than Him submitting to us is what
leads to permanent Realization, rather than temporary shifts of
state that are essentially just "riding on the Master's coattails".
All the experiences that arise in the midst of your
sadhana are drawing you into the non-conventional form of cognition and perception,
in which all things that arise are known directly, as they are, prior to the separate
self sense. Through the agency of all of that, the intuition of your prior Condition
is given. It is temporarily touched and felt via these non-conventional perceptions
and cognitions. When you return to the functional levels that are lived conventionally,
the sensation that was gained in the previous extraordinary state lingers for
awhile, but you have got to begin to use what is implied, what is truly shown
to you in those extraordinary states. They are not the Truth. They are not to
be held onto for their own sake, the way an addict holds onto his drug highs.
They are actually statements about the truly unconventional nature of what you
call the ordinary. If you do not then begin to comprehend the ordinary in unconventional
terms, your extraordinary and spiritual experiences are not serving you. They
are totally useless in that case, because they have nothing to give you in themselves
but bondage to the forms of limitation they also represent, as well as a pattern
of fascinated inclinations for the extraordinary in itself. Such a way of fascination,
or low, is at war with the realization of life in Truth.
Adi Da Samraj, Garbage and the Goddess
Over the years, Adi Da criticized
us repeatedly for creating revisions of the Way of Adidam. In some sense, one
of the easiest (and therefore, most common) revisions to fall into during Adi
Da's human lifetime — given His prolific, non-stop, Gift-Giving —
was to equate "the practice of Adidam" with merely showing up to receive the
next Gift: the next essay, the next set of Notes from Him, the next Image-Art
presentation, the next Internet Darshan, or the next retreat to Naitauba to see Adi Da in person and be "rejuiced"
in one's practice. It certainly was easy to mistake all this for "the practice",
since it occupied all of us to such a degree: the Gifts were so frequent, so potent,
and (to the unsubmitted ego) so addictive. But in fact, this was not the
You never establish lawfulness with Me. You are always
detached and self-involved. This is a cult of egos that has been so coddled and
accommodated for thirty-five years that now you think your revisionism is the
Way that I have Revealed.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj, June 22, 2007
Listen (below) to Adi Da's very humorous and wonderfully instructive
talk from 1987, The Way Of Fun, about how, after being around His devotees,
He "finally got it", that "it's time for the Siddhas" to adapt
to modern times, "time for the Truth to change". This new way ("The
Way of Fun") for realizing God without requiring self-transcendence will
"require nothing of you except to really dig those Divine Vibes." The
talk is Adi Da's wonderful reflection of how the ego is always trying to revise
the Way into something that is self-fulfilling rather than self-transcending.
"So whatever kind of association you have with Me . . . as long as it's fun,
you're happy to do it. But if it requires anything of you, your resistance comes
We could call this alternative version of the Way of Adidam the "addict's
revision", since it is all about receiving the next spiritually (or intellectually,
or emotionally) stimulating "hit" from our Beloved Guru.
The ego is an addict. Ego is itself addiction to the
body-mind. So the transcending of the body-mind point of view is the transcending
of addiction. Everything that leads up to the
Perfect Practice is a process whereby modes of addiction are transcended —
in some cases, are transcended in a process of outgrowing, and in other cases,
it requires a rather immediate, early understanding of certain things, particularly
the grossest kinds of addictive behaviors, and you drop it. That's it. It's right
there at the beginning.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj, April 24, 2005
Many devotees are aware (in some general sense) of our Master's Teaching
about the ego-"I" as an addict particularly in areas where the "addiction"
analogy is really obvious (e.g., diet, sex, etc.) but we may not have considered
how that applies even to our relationship with Him: how we revise the Way
of Adidam itself into an addiction, by taking His Spiritual
Transmission to body or mind, as an egoically self-fulfilling experience.
In contrast, true "Divine Distraction" is about transcending self by submitting
whole bodily to our Master. We often talk about feeling or communing with His
"State" (while actually remaining "me" having body-mind
"experiences") . . . whereas self-transcendence (and God-Realization)
only occurs when we also submit to His Person:
DEVOTEE: I have always carried this belief that God
is Energy, Light, Consciousness Love-Bliss, the Condition of existence, and everything
is made of That.
ADI DA: Fine. But God Is That. You are abstracting
the Characteristics of the Divine from the Divine.
DEVOTEE: I do not understand.
ADI DA: You are separating the Divine Characteristics from the Divine.
You are devoted to the Characteristics, not to the Divine, not to the Very Person.
You abstract the Characteristics from the Divine, and then you superimpose them
on yourself the "Love" in you, the "Love-Bliss" in you, the "Divine Self"
in you. Where is God? Where is the Divine Person? Where is the One to Whom you
must submit? Where is the One Who has those Characteristics, the One Who is to
be so characterized? Where is That One? You are involved in yourself, and even
superimposing the Divine Attributes on yourself Love, Love-Bliss, Consciousness,
Divine Self as if That is you. That Is God, the Person Whom you must Realize
yet, and the Person Whom you will not Realize without the utter transcendence
of your egoic self by submission.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
Heart Must Be Moved", Heart Conversion Talk Series
So the important thing to notice
about all of this "Gift reception" — including going on retreat to Naitauba
to "get reconnected to Him", or "get rejuiced" — is that the "flow"
is all one way: from Adi Da to us. For any of us for whom this receiving
of Gifts has been the sum total of our "practice", we most definitely
have been continuing the "Teaching Years" error, making our Master submit
to us, without doing much submission to Him in return. We have been using Him
to satisfy, rather than transcend, ourselves.
For example, Adi Da has always
said that we should return to see Him on Naitauba only after we had made much
good use of the last retreat with Him, and showed the signs of further
growth — that, in fact, it was spiritually unlawful to be given access to
Him otherwise. But the whole notion of going on retreat to get "reconnected" or
"rejuiced" typically reflected the fact that we had largely squandered the Gifts
He gave us the last time, and had gone back to square one. (We wouldn't need to
get "reconnected" if we had maintained our practice and hadn't dissociated from
The prerequisite for any Spiritual growth, whatever
form it may take, even in the egoic evolutionary terms, is the disciplining of
this life-vehicle, the purification of sub-human and ordinary human existence.
Do you think you can bypass it because you live in this friendly egalitarian time?
Everybody thinks they can bullshit one another and believe the latest paperback
or television garbage. You want to perpetually come into My Company unprepared
for My Spiritual Blessing and call that the "Way of [Adidam]". Understand
that you have to deal with life, straighten it out, purify it, make it straight,
prepare themselves for the Divine Intervention.
You all want God to be
your slave and give you all kinds of experiences to make you feel good and make
this world a terrific wonderful place and give you intimates and friends, a long
life, amusements, distractions. You want to call that "religion". That kind of
religion is about you. Real religion is about God, Truth, That Which is Inherently
Divine, Great, Absolute, Self-Existing, Self-Radiant, All Love-Bliss. You will
not Realize That until you are crushed into non-existence, as you fear death will
do. . . You have to receive God in life and be submitted utterly.
Adi Da Samraj, "The
Crashing Down of My Divine Grace"
Heart Conversion Talk Series,
February 12, 1993
You must understand the nature of your relationship
to Me and function appropriately in it. That is the Law, and that is how you will grow.
Do the ego-transcending practice. Be rightly related to the Divine Avataric Master,
and show that sign in His Divine Avataric Company. And always be ready, then, to
receive the greater Gift, That Which Enables you to grow further. Show the evidence
of the fact that you have received My Gifts and Lessons, and have been made competent
by that, are responsible for it all. That is your obligation.
Always come to the Divine Avataric Master with your hands filled with the gifts, the
signs of your responsibility, based on what you have already received, and with your heart
open to receive a Gift That Enables further growth. You should not come asking for the
same lesson to be given to you again because you have not accepted responsibility for the
Gift already Given, or the Lesson already Given. This is inappropriate and irresponsible,
and does not permit growth and, in fact, presents an obstacle to receiving anything further.
I Am Saying this to you now. I have Said it to you many times before. So this is a very
important lesson to learn a very important Law, then, for you to fulfill.
Adi Da Samraj, February 25, 1988
We may find the same thing in our daily
practice: going to the meditation hall each morning to get "rejuiced",
but then dissipating that reinvigorating Communion with Adi Da throughout the
rest of the day by our failure to engage moment-to-moment practice in all the
various circumstances of life, work, relationship, and so on — hence, back
to square one again, the next morning. (As our Master has put it, we tend to think
we are giving Him a gift when we "require" ourselves to go and
sit in the meditation hall, where we are swiftly sublimed by His Transmission.)
The day that unfolds after you have gone to the Communion
Hall in the early morning is not a vacation until nightfall when you go to the
Communion Hall again. No. All the hours between the times when you go to the Communion
Hall are the times of this same Yoga. You must do it persistently and artfully.
Do not allow yourself the vacation of wandering into the content of the conditioned
body-mind. The only thing it is going to show you is its conditioning, based on
your egoic "self-possession" and denial of God. Your business is this Yoga, in
the midst of your practice of it noticing this and that in order to apply a discipline
of right life that is in conformity with Me, and in greater conformity with Me
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
"Surrender the Faculties
of the Body-Mind to Me", Ishta
The Reality-Way of Adidam is a comprehensive Way of life
that originates from the zero-point of devotional recognition-response to Me. It is all based on maintaining and continuing that.
It does not merely fill the hours in which one is participating in the culturally prescribed events.
Your understanding covers the entirety of your life.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
Meditation is the "easy street" of the daily practice, where
Adi Da's Transmission is most readily connected with. It is a "tithing"
of our total day, a mere fraction of it. It is in
the rest of the moments of the day — where we spend the bulk of our time
— that the real sacrifice of self in practice is enacted (or not). It is
when there is competition for our attention that we get to see how fiercely our
attention and energy are bound by the longterm habits we have indulged. Money,
food, and sex have been our very fixed "center of gravity" for many
lifetimes, and that is why we have incarnated in the material dimension (i.e.,
as beings identified with the physical body) again in this lifetime.
this engenders a certain humility about what Realization is really going to require
of us, and deflates fantasies of our Master serving as a kind of "Pied Piper"
who easily distracts us from all of this, as we are led, dancing ecstatically,
into another Dimension. There is certainly an aspect of practice that is like
that (and which grants us the humor to endure the real heat of practice) —
but it's not all "easy street"! The principle of our Way is indeed
Divine Distraction; but the ego is a 350-pound person, the doorway into
the Divine Domain is very narrow, and a whole lot of "weight loss" has to occur
first before we can follow our Master through the hole in the universe.
There is just no way around it — everybody is Lawless. You listen to
My Revelation-Word, or receive My Instructions relative to each aspect of the functional, practical,
relational, and cultural disciplines, and you find yourself resisting in one way or another, because
you have not lived a Way of life oriented toward God. You have lived the usual life, as your parents
and everybody you grew up with did. You spent your entire life, at least the years before you became
My devotee, before you even "considered" real Spiritual life. Therefore, in Spiritual terms you weigh
350 pounds! You have over-indulged yourself in every area. Every part of you is "fat", "inside" and
"outside". Not just the body — everything is "fat". Your mind is "fat" with constant thinking.
You are sexually "fat" and obsessed. Everything is "fat". Thus, every part of the discipline of the
Reality-Way of Adidam is just an aggravation — unless you are really ready for it, unless you have
truly Heard Me about it, unless you have suffered enough, or are perceptive and sensitive enough to
what it is really all about.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
rightly, Adidam is both "a hard school and a happy Way of life." Thus, as Adi
Da puts it, the practice of Adidam must be even "muscularly" engaged
in the beginning (responsively, but with a real will), when one's egoic "flabbiness"
is at its greatest, and one's "center of gravity" is still (by karma,
i.e., force of habit) very much "money, food, and sex", not God. As
He has said, we must "live to God" for a significant length of time
before the heat of practice turns to Light, the joy of God-Communion exceeds the
pleasure of sex, and the Godward orientation becomes second nature, and will persist
A man went to his Master and said, "Master, I feel
like there are two dogs fighting inside me, a good dog and a bad dog. Which one
is going to win?" The Master said, "The one that you feed the most."
Adi Da Samraj
The Realization associated with this Way . . . is a great
Siddhi, a profound Realization. It is not something
you can enter into based on mere reading and superficial attention to the possibility.
You must enter into the exercise most profoundly, even muscularly and bodily.
You must really do this Work and provide a vehicle for the Living Current, provide
a Domain for It. Then the shell cracks and the heart awakens and the Bliss-Being
expands to Infinity, but only when this Work is done, when all the knots are undone.
And that is a literal, practical Work. It can occupy you for lifetimes, but you
have been given the intelligence for It directly, completely. You are given all
Help for It, so that the Process can be fulfilled in one lifetime, if you are
devoted to It completely.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
Great Bird That Flies to the Heart", in The
Because of a personal "practice"
that is always indulging weakness and always tending to go back to "square one" (which can be contrasted with
a practice focused on "strength training" and establishing continuity and growth), we have remained
largely a "student-beginner" culture.
What exactly is missing
from this "addict's revision" of the Way of Adidam? What does the true
Way of Adidam look like, in contrast?
Many so-called "Spiritual" seekers are just
"Narcissus" in drag! They do not have enough gut
for Spiritual life. They are not interested in the demand that is the True Guru.
They are "dogs" who come to their master only for a "bone".
A dog whose mind is set on the bone his master has will do any ridiculous thing
to acquire it. The dog rolls on the ground and whines and barks and jumps through
hoops. He does whatever he must, until his master gives him the bone. Then the
dog runs away with the bone. He does not want to see anybody. He does not want
anybody around him when he is chewing his bone. He does not want to be touched.
does not want to be approached. He makes a vital circle around himself, and he
just works on his bone. And if it is a good, big bone, such that he cannot eat
it all in one sitting, he usually hides it somewhere, to protect it, after he
has finished his chew.
The dog does not go back to his master again until
he is out of bone. He does not go to his master in order to be with the master,
to delight in the master, to be mastered by the master. He only goes for another
bone. Such is the ordinary "Spiritual seeker". "Give me Initiation
into your Yoga. Give me the secret mantra. Give me the breathing
exercise. Teach me the 'Kriya Yoga'. Give me Shaktipat.
Give me the Divine Vision." The guy always asks for the "bone"!
he actually be granted one of those things (any one of the traditional forms of
Initiation will do — mantras, energies, beliefs, and so on), the guy goes.
He leaves to play his game with that technique or consolation. He consumes it
in solitude. He does not want to be touched. He does not want to be interrupted.
He does not want to be reminded of what is "outside" himself, that would
require him to be in relationship.
I wait for My true devotee to come and
surrender to Me. Satsang with Me is the relationship between My devotee
and Me — not between the "dog" and his "bone". The relationship
to Me is Satsang. That is the discovery. That is the process. That
relationship is the Yoga.
The relationship between Guru and devotee is the
Secret pointed to by the Great Siddhas. It is the esoteric Universal Process. It
is the Single Means. It is Very Truth. Everything else — all "bone"-chewing
— is only a ritual re-enactment of the process that occurs spontaneously
and is alive only in relationship to the Guru. At best, it is a ritual
re-enactment. Therefore, True Spiritual life is not the activity of Spiritual
seekers. It is the activity of those who discover their Spiritual search
is false, fruitless, founded in dilemma — a manifestation of the same suffering
that other human beings are suffering. True Spiritual life begins when the Spiritual
search is abandoned and Satsang with Me is begun. . . .
When you live that
Condition, the relationship to Me, when you actually live Satsang with Me, it
becomes pleasurable. It becomes easy, spontaneous. But as long as you resist that
Condition, My Company and its implicit demand will make you darker, heavier, more
obsessed with self-enclosure and the strategies of "Narcissus". . .
I will never give the seeker a "bone". Those who have come to
Me for "bones" are waiting in vain, because what they are hoping for
is not going to happen. All of that drama of seeking has nothing whatsoever to
do with Truth. . . . I have not come to satisfy My devotees. A satisfied devotee
is still the same one he or she was to begin with. I am only interested in the
utter dissolution of the entire limitation that appears as My devotee.
Adi Da Samraj
from "Walking the Dog" in My
Drawing on Adi Da's imagery
of the dog with his bone, we might refer to this "addict's revision"
of the Way of Adidam as "The Way of the Bone".
The genuine Way of Adidam
is each devotee's relationship with Adi Da. True relationships are two-way,
"give and take" affairs. In essence, what has been largely missing is our response
(and, altogether, the responsive disposition that is a natural part of a loving
relationship). What has been lacking (or insufficient) is the "giving back"
part of that relationship, our gifts back to Adi Da: responsibility for the moment-to-moment
practice of submission to Him (through "radical" devotion and right life practice) throughout the day; responsibility
for closing all our personal "loopholes" in that practice (above and beyond adopting the general "right life" disciplines that all devotees practice: more here); endurance of the associated
tapas to the point of growth; and fulfillment
of our collective responsibilities: serving His Great
Calling to the point where the survival (and flourishing) of Adidam and our
Master's Work here for the liberation all beings has been ensured for centuries
It's worth remembering (as we talk about "giving back" to Adi Da) that Adi Da incarnated here already Divinely
Realized. He had no egoic needs for "Himself". His "need"
was (and is) all about liberating all of us, and establishing the Means for enabling
that, in perpetuity.
I need all your love.
I am the Way wherein your
drives to the Heart.
Do not think that I am here
you do not love me,
the Heart has no way to the world.
Adi Da Samraj
poem 12, Crazy Da Must
Inclined To His Weaker Side
our "giving back" to Him is not for His sake but for ours it's just
the way the process of God-Realization works. One simply cannot Realize
the Divine without completely sacrificing and forgetting the limited "self",
and becoming completely submitted to and identified with the Divine instead.
So going back to square one repeatedly is exactly not the Way of Adidam! The Way
is based on ongoing, mutual gift-giving between devotee and Guru. The devotee gives the Guru a gift of practice.
This allows the Guru to give the devotee a greater Revelation. Based on that greater Revelation, the devotee can give
the Guru the gift of even greater practice, even more sacrifice of self. In this way, a "virtuous circle" between Guru and devotee is created.
Finally, at some point, the devotee is able to give the gift of his or her entire self. And this fullest
gift enables the Divine Guru to give the devotee the Most Perfect Gift of Divine Realization.
Adi Da has always said that it is His disposition to grant us Divine Realization instantly . . . .it's just that we're
not prepared to make the complete sacrifice of self in a single instant, so it becomes a progressive process. Adi Da always allowed
for that necessary time and ordeal, preparing us to make the great Sacrifice. But what is not supposed to occur is an
endless return to square one, because we bring no gift of greater practice, and therefore squander His Gift. . .
What we are
giving is that egoic self and all its limitations and limited preferences, in exchange for Infinite Life. If we really
understood that this was what the "giving back" was all about, we wouldn't struggle with it or resist it; we'd give it away freely!
You come to Me for another consolation, to prevent awareness of your suffering.
You come for distraction, a fascination, a charming vision. You want to be consoled. But why do you
want to be consoled? What state are you in that you should want to be consoled by Me? You are suffering!
Yes? Since you are only suffering, why are you defending all of this nonsense?
It is time to be rid of all
of that. It is utterly unnecessary. It can be abandoned! All of that is what I want surrendered as gifts
around My Feet. I want to see your gift to Me of all the suffering, all the sorrows, all the long faces,
all the usual Yoga, all the kriya Shakti, all the visions, all the beliefs, all the philosophies, all the
conventional 'religion' and Spirituality, all your personal (and even racial) history. I want to see your
attachment to birth and your fear of death. I want to Free you of all of it! Such are the implications of
Adi Da Samraj
"Walking the Dog", My "Bright" Word
if we actually are interested in God-Realization, the "giving back"
part of the relationship is what we must all correct now. Not fully playing our
part in the relationship with our Guru is certainly the primary reason why we
have remained largely a student-beginner culture. But most importantly, our self-understanding
about this is urgently needed if we are to ensure the survival of Adidam in perpetuity.
Even as our Master gave His lifetime to us, it is now our turn to give back to
our Beloved Guru in a big way, with the rest of our human lifetimes, if we are
to ensure that this first generation of Adidam is not also to be its last.
worst mistake we could make now — in this "quiet" period that
has opened up after our Master's passing — is to continue playing out the
"addict's revision" of the Way of Adidam: by being childishly disappointed
(or even angry) that the "hits" from Him have stopped (or slowed) or
that our Guru's activities are no longer preoccupying us or keeping us constantly
"contented". And then, in reaction: dropping out; or trying to find our "hits"
somewhere else in typical "addict" fashion (whether with another Guru or through
some "lesser samadhi" of food, money, and sex); or just retreating into a kind
of longterm "sulk" or depression. It's important to distinguish the disappointment
or anger of the frustrated addict in ourselves from our natural mourning at the
passing of the human form of our Divine Guru — these are two very different
things! (The latter is relational; the former, self-possessed.)
in "the Way of the Bone" has consequences beyond those of mere human
immaturity, in that practice of the Way of Adidam is subject to spiritual
laws, including the Sacrament of Universal Sacrifice (to which Adi
Da is referring in the following passage):
If you enter into spiritual relationship with an Adept
[a Spiritual Master], you must enter into His service. When the great gift of
Spiritual Transmission is what you are receiving [twenty-four hours a day], your
obligation for service is effective twenty-four hours a day. It is a lifelong
obligation, a total obligation even as the Spiritual Master lives His entire life
in obligation to devotees. People who do not express that consciousness cannot
use [My Transmission]. They become guilty and build up too much residual self-energy
through their non-service and non-surrender. Eventually they stop practicing because
they can no longer justify taking the Gift of Spiritual Help. Then they just sit
around with glazed looks on their faces.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj,
I is the Body of Life
The Divine Avataric Master Incarnates the Self-Existing
and Self-Radiant Divine Conscious Light in bodily (human) Form . . . Therefore,
those who presume to live in the Company of the Divine Avataric Master are Given
"experiences", but always according to the Divine Law. If they surrender
themselves to the Divine Avataric Master, and if they constantly transcend themselves
through devotional Communion with the Divine Avataric Master, under all conditions
and via all psycho-physical functions, then they are Given the benign Destiny
that purifies and Enlightens. However, if they approach the Divine Avataric Master
like thieves, merely imitating devotees in order to gain "self"-glamorizing
"experiences" and "worldly" status, or if they simply refuse
the Divine Avataric Master, by their ego-possessed and "self"-meditative
ways, then they are given the negative, or "self"-defining, destiny
that binds the body-mind-complex to its own limits and excludes the Realization
of the Divine Reality. This Is the Divine Law, and its effects are inevitable.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj, "The Law In My Company"
we are not growing in practice, the fault lies not in the Way of Adidam, but in
ourselves. The Horse will take us to God Knows Where, but only if we grasp
His Tail responsively (in response to recognizing
Him as the Divine Person) in every moment of every day. This time after our
Master's passing is a wonderful opportunity for feeling how much our Beloved Guru
has given all of us (and each of us) altogether over the years; how much we owe
Him in return (not out of mere obligation — although that is certainly true
too — but out of love, and resonance with His great Work of liberating all
beings); how much we'd like to engage this Way to the point of real growth
and Realization; and how much we want to make sure Adidam is always available
to all future generations (including our reincarnated selves).
A few years
ago, Adi Da made a useful analogy between His dog, M (then new, untrained, and
not yet living with Him on Naitauba), and devotees at the "student-beginner"
level, who are indulging in "the Way of the Bone", rather than practicing
the Way of Adidam:
M is not ready to live in My House
yet, altogether. She's not prepared to just be there. It's the same with devotees.
They can't come into My House yet. They're "wild" [like M]. They haven't been
disciplined. They haven't embraced Me altogether and My Instruction, the practice,
the collective responsibilities. They have no gifts. . .
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Da with M, Iota, and Toto in Cow Catcher, 2006.
Adi Da with M,
Iota, and Toto, 2006. (click to
So, it's something
like with M. She'll go to school for a while. Hopefully, it will just be a few
months, and she'll come over to Fiji. That's the way the gathering [of devotees]
should be. But you've all been wasting My time, just repeating your error on Me
over and over again, and trying to deceive Me by making minimal gestures and so
forth. That's not going to school. That's not getting the training. That's not
changing your act. And all of that is required...
The traditional sages
would just make that measure of people. Various qualifications were looked for
that essentially had to do with: you've gone through the school of the culture,
the larger culture, and you're prepared with the necessary prerequisites for the
great, Transcendental Divine Process. And if you don't have those characteristics,
you shouldn't come. You would be dismissed from the sage's company. You wouldn't
even get close to a sage personally. The measure would be made in advance. . .
[the first major milestone in the practice of the Way of Adidam] is not
a mountain for those who are truly prepared for 1.1 approach [the level of
practice just beyond the beginner's practice] to Me. It's right there on the
tip of your tongue, so to speak. It is further established through Spiritual
Communion with Me, but it's right there, because you've already established
all the discipline and the practice, and so forth. True Hearing is right there
to be confirmed in your life. . .
People who move beyond student-beginner
have dealt with themselves in those terms. That's why it's like M, you see. She's
got to deal with some real "behavior" things. She's been a puppy, that's good;
now, she's got to start to grow up, and she needs schooling to do that.
same with the whole gathering [of devotees]: You've got to grow up. You've
got to deal with your aberrations and incorporate your relationship to Me —
in other words, incarnate it, bring it into your life and grow up. Get out of
your dramatizations, your adolescent disposition, not wanting discipline —
your not wanting [the obligation of] devotion, your not wanting obligation [altogether].
You don't want to be accountable. . .
Nothing about this Way is about taking
huge time [to advance in practice], unless people make it so.
Adi Da Samraj
February 12, 2006
dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
"The dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
(click to enlarge)
Human beings tend to make overly much of My Teaching-Revelation
as a verbal matter as something with which to entertain their minds. My Teaching-Revelation
is actually a process, not merely a verbal Communication. My Teaching-Revelation
Is the process of "radical" devotion and right life that Is "Perfect Knowledge"
. . .
The dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you.
Adi Da Samraj
June 28, 1999
"The dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
This metaphor of the ego as an unsubmitted and "un-washed"
dog in relation to the Divine is utterly offensive to the
ego. We like to think of ourselves as something far greater than
a "dog"! (Even though, on the scale of the Divine, there
is not much difference.) And, failing to spiritually
recognize Adi Da as the very Divine speaking to us, we tend
to react to His Words, as though they were the words of a common
megalomaniac, aimed at belittling us and making much of "himself"
rather than the words of the Divine Person, aimed at liberating
us from our otherwise horrifically limited destiny through submission
to Him, the very Divine.
dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
"The dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
(click to enlarge)
To refuse to recognize and surrender
to the Divine to insist on remaining identified with a limited, mortal, suffering,
un-Happy body-mind that is truly nothing on the scale of Infinity is, if rightly
understood, truly sub-human . . . even though it is what most of us are doing
(right now). In so doing, we are completely out of alignment with our True Nature,
and we suffer the consequences. We should take all this into account as we read
(and get offended! but then illumined by) the following passage that Adi Da
deliberately wrote to offend the ego and to simultaneously Awaken us to our actual
Divine Potential and which He placed as the very "First Word" in His
ultimate Scripture, The Aletheon,
as a "lion at the gate":
Here and Now, I Will Tell You What Will Benefit You
The Most, Because I Love You. . . .
If You Constantly Devotionally Commune
With Me, and (Thus and Thereby) Whole bodily Forget Your ego-"I"
of "self"-Contraction Where Is doubt and anxious living? If You Whole
bodily Forget Your separate and separative "self" In Me Now,
Even anger, sorrow, and fear Are Gone. When You Abide In Whole bodily Devotional
Communion With Me, the natural results of Your various activities No Longer
Have Power To Separate or Distract You From Me (and, Thus, From My Own
State and Blessing-Power). . . .
I Am The One and Indivisibly "Bright"
Divine and Perfectly egoless Person That Is Reality Itself. . . .
who Do Not devotionally Recognize Me and devotionally Respond to
Me and who (Therefore) Are Without Faith In Me Do Not
(and Cannot) Realize Me. Therefore, they (By Means Of their
own self-Contraction From Me) Remain ego-Bound To The Realm Of Cosmic Nature,
and To The Ever-Changing Round Of conditional "knowledge" and temporary
"experience", and To The Ceaselessly Repetitive Cycles Of birth and
search and loss and death.
Such Faithless beings Constantly Refuse and
Fail To Be Distracted By Me Because they Are Entirely Distracted By themselves!
They Are Like Narcissus The Myth Of ego At His Pond. Their Merely "self"-Reflecting
minds Are Like a mirror in a dead man's hand. Their tiny hearts Are Like a boundless
desert, where the mirage of Separate "self" is ceaselessly admired,
and The True Water Of My Constant Transcendental Spiritual Presence Stands Un-Noticed,
in the droughty heap and countless sands of ceaseless thoughts. If Only they Would
Un-think themselves In Me, these (Now Faithless) little hearts Could Have
Immediate Access To The True Water Of My True Heart! Through Devotional
Turning Of body, emotion, mind, breath, and all of Separate "self" To
Me. Even Narcissus Could Find The Way To My Oasis, In The True Heart's
Room and House. But No, and Yet, the thinking mind of ego-"I" Is Never
Bathed In Light and, So, it sits, Un-Washed, Like a desert dog that wanders
in a herd of flies.
The "Un-Washed dog" of "self"-Contracted
body-mind Does Not think To Notice Me The Divine Avataric Master Of its
wild heart and Wilderness.
The "Wandering dog" of ego-"I" Does Not "Locate"
Me In My Inherent "Bright" Perfection The Divine Avataric Master Of Everything,
The Intrinsically egoless Divine True Heart Of all conditionally Manifested
beings, and The Non-Separate and Indivisible Transcendental Spiritual and Self-Evidently
Divine Self-Nature, Self-Condition, Source-Condition, and Self-State Of all-and-All.
If "Narcissus" Will Relent, and heart-Consent To Bow and Live In Whole-bodily-Participatory
Devotional Communion With Me, Constantly-To-Me-Responsively Surrendering
all of body-mind-"self" To Me, By Means Of Un-Contracting Devotion
To Me, Then Even If That True Devotion Is Shown With Nothing More Than
the "little gift" of ego-"I" (itself) I Will Always Accept The Offering
With Open Arms Of Transcendental Spiritual Love-Bliss-Love, Always Offering My
Own Divine Immensity In "Bright" Return.
Therefore, whoever Is Given (By
heart) To Me Will Be Washed, From head To toe, By All The True Water Of
My Transcendental Spiritual Love-Bliss-Light, That Always Crashes Down On all-and-All,
Below My Blessing-Feet.
My Circumstance and Situation Is At the
heart of all beings where I Am (Now, and Forever Hereafter) Divinely
Avatarically Self-"Emerging" As The One and all-and-All-Outshining Divine
and Only Person Divinely Avatarically Self-Manifested As The Perfectly
Non-Dual "Brightness" Of Love-Bliss-Full and all-and-All-Filling Transcendental
Spiritual Conscious Light, Self-Existing and Self-Radiant As The Intrinsically
egoless and Perfectly Subjective "Root"-Reality, Which Is Inherently
Tacit Self-Apprehension Of Transcendental Spiritual, Perfectly Non-conditional,
Perfectly Indivisible, Perfectly Acausal, and Self-Evidently Divine Being.
Adi Da Samraj, "The Divine Avataric Self-Disclosure"
Word, The Aletheon
If we require ourselves to read what Adi Da is communicating here
(in ecstatic language purposed toward Awakening the heart), not as an ordinary man
but as the Very Divine speaking to egos, we see how ecstatic the Revelation that
the Divine is here in Person truly is; and how absurd our resistance to submitting
to the Divine our True Self actually is. Why would be committed to a destiny
that is infinitely less than our True Potential?
Why, indeed . . . For
the most part, it isn't even our choice.
We begin to understand that we
are resisting largely because we are unconsciously programmed by our "modern",
materialistic, adolescent, and anti-authoritarian culture to indiscriminately
resist submitting to anything. This, in contrast to the traditional view
of all saints and spiritual Realizers that submission to the Divine is essential
in order to Realize anything great spiritually. The laws of how Spiritual Realization
works don't change with the passage of time. But we, as a culture, can certainly
get "dumbed down" spiritually, with the passage of time.
Our materialistic, adolescent, anti-authoritarian "cultural programming"
is a very poor excuse for our remaining in what is essentially a
hell, compared to Divine Realization! Compare your current state
with Infinite, Eternal Happiness, and you'll get a sense for why
Adi Da feels free to use language like "unwashed dogs",
"slugs", "fools", "little hearts",
"ten-watt light bulbs", etc. to describe the ego in its
ridiculous commitment to remaining limited and un-Happy, and settling
for only a few moments of limited pleasure in life, then dying.
dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
"The dog in . . . My House can do it. So can you."
(click to enlarge)
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Those who have advanced
in the practice of the Way of Adidam (including the milestone of "Hearing"
to which Adi Da refers in an earlier passage) can confirm that,
central to that growth, is the understanding that Spiritual Realization requires
|The Life-Force that is felt within the presumed-to-be-personal
body-mind-complex is moved by willful or desiring acts to create circumstances
of would-be ego-fulfillment. However, in Reality, That Life-Force Is Truly Universal
(or Indivisible and all-and-All-Pervading) not inward and personal (or ego-bound,
or point-of-view-bound). Therefore, if That Life-Force is manipulated by inward
motives to satisfy personal desires of all kinds, not only will the resulting
satisfaction be only occasional and at most partial, but the Life-Force will Itself
be always frustrated, since It cannot, by becoming subordinate to any patterns
of personal desires, Fulfill Its Universal (or Indivisible and all-and-All-Pervading)
Function As Prior Unity and (Thus and Thereby) Realize Its Intrinsic Divine Freedom
in the conditionally arising world. |
The human individual is immature and
always dissatisfied until he or she out-grows mere personal desire (or even
any search for ego-based self-indulgence), and, instead, lives on the basis
of ego-transcending love (or the moment to moment transcending of ego-based desirepatterning),
and thereby constantly demonstrates the Universal Moral Disposition of Prior Unity
and the responsible intrinsic (or root) management of all functional and relational
conditions of experience and action.
The truly mature human individual
is, characteristically, free of all the intrinsically and inevitably frustrating
limitations of conditional reality and the personal and collective relationship-politics
of social egoity.
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
of Desire and The ego-Transcending Culture of Love"
necessarily takes the form of the surrender of one's "personal" preferences;
the relinquishment of concern about (or fixation with) one's "own" state
(emotional, physical, mental, etc.) through practice of "radical" devotion to Adi Da; and the giving over of one's "own" life to one's True Self: to
the Viewpoint of the Divine and to serving Adi Da's Work of liberating all beings.
One cannot realize God (or Prior Unity) without animating God's Viewpoint,
without acting as though God's Needs were "one's own", and without ceasing to
animate (or "be") the "limited self" or ego (by ceasing to indulge
all its needs, preferences, and addictions).
In the following passage, Ruchiradama Quandra Sukhapur Rani makes these points
in the context of her own process of realizing the "Hearing" capability.
The key to her growth was her shift in focus: to Adi Da's Work and Instructions,
and away from her "own" preferences.
Now in direct relationship to my Beloved Guru, I went through a profound
and extended reinvestigation and direct testing of the entire egoic structure
of my life and consciousness. . . .
Beloved Adi Da asked me to begin to
serve Him by passing on His Communications to His devotees. Beloved Adi Da's Instructions
to His devotees encompass every aspect of human existence and everything required
for the establishment of His Work in the world. And so, in this new service, I
had to begin to do profound sadhana [spiritual practice] for the sake of others
in a manner I had never done before. I had to relinquish my self-based concentration
on my "own" relationship to Beloved Adi Da and in the simpler forms of service
such as cleaning, cooking, and caring for [Adi Da's children] that, until
then, I had been used to doing in His Intimate Sphere. Now I had to devote my
life to His Work. This marked a profound turning point in me, a surrender of all
Apart from passing on Beloved Adi Da's Instructions,
He expected me to serve others in the right devotional understanding and reception
of the Instructions given. This service obliged me to move out of self-meditation
and obsession with my own emotion, and that is how the intensive listening-hearing
process began for me.
During this time, I saw that, no matter how positive
or negative or easeful or difficult any moment was, I was always doing the same
thing. Through my Beloved Guru's Divine Siddhi [Blessing-Power], I saw that my
body-mind was only self-contraction and that it was my own activity. I also saw
that my Divine Heart-Master Stands eternally Prior to that activity of mine. And
I felt a profound Liberation in being able to effectively resort to Him beyond
the mechanism of self-contraction. This was not a mental process it was a Revelation,
a Gift, an Initiation into Communion with Him.
Thus, the Grace of hearing
was awakened in me.
Ruchiradama Quandra Sukhapur Rani
in Carolyn Lee, The Promised God-Man
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one sense, Adi Da's passing represents an opportunity: it is much harder for us
to engage "the Way of the Bone", now that our Beloved Guru is no longer
showering us with physically tangible gifts that we can turn into "bones".
In some sense, it is easier to practice the Way of Adidam in its true form now
that He is no longer alive, because circumstances require us to learn (as Adi
Da once put it) how to "cultivate a sheerly spiritual relationship"
Grief is good — it is a way of being attentive.
But you must allow yourself to be transformed, by my apparent absence, into a
community of devotees most fully far beyond any realization of your common life
that existed during the lifetime of [My] appearance. That is what I am telling
you. And I expect you to remember this when this one finally goes.
Adi Da Samraj
The Death and Birth Of the God-Man
The "Method" of My approach was this: I would
turn the ones I met from fascinations of their own into fascination with Me.
The last fascination is the Body and the lifetime Story of the Avatar
of the Real Acausal Divine. And, then, I would disappear. Now, I have, finally,
When a human being has turned from habitual
fascination with the ego's "I", and, from it, thence to fascination
with Me, and, even then, when My Own Avataric Form has ceased to appear,
then there is no one else or other to be known but only "Perfect
Knowledge" of Me, As I Am, is the Forever Residual Possibility.
I have left you alone by the sea, there is nothing to feel or know, except the
Avatar Adi Da Samraj
of My Absence", The Eternal One
article apppears in the sections
Da's Divine Mahasamadhi and Adidam in Perpetuity
Questions about Adi
Da and Adidam